“Everyone” is an artist..”

friday night and i’m in.
friday night in berlin.
two nights before i return to london for the first time in six months.
my LAST weekend in berlin (for two whole weeks anyway).
friday night and the only things that are currenly keeping me sane are:

the mixtape my friend ryan made for me
the invitation to the party maurice and alex will play at (that i won’t be able to go to but at least i know I *could*)
the imminent arrival of my friend mary, who will watch battle royale with me
and
joey comeau (i’ll get back to him later)

why am i sick? i’m sick becauase several weeks ago, i started to feel sick and then as soon as i got better (there was a mate in town from london afer all) i went for it for four days straight. and then wasn’t so well again, so took a week out and then i went for it again, five days this time, more substances involved this time, until my voice began to dissapear and i felt more tired and then i started coughing. only to find myself here. trapped in on a friday night. maybe i didn’t need to go out the last two nights, or bike across town. but i had great company and…

its all fine. i’m here. mary will be here soon. ryan’s mixtape is in the background. and best of all. i have…joey comeau.. who? who you may ask? joey comeau is my latest writer crush… a writer crush is when i read someone’s writing and am so taken with their literary skill that i find myself wanting to read everything they’ve ever read at once, and then dream of meeting them, only to endlessly gush and look up at them in a way that says.. you’re so wonderful you can’t possibly be real. and they woudl modestly shrug and say they weren’t so sure about the last few lines of prose they had written and about here i would swoon.

some girls melt over expensive presents, or flashy nights out. i’ve got a weakness for wit, dryness, neurosis and literary skill. joey comeau ticks all boxes. i first got turned on to his work through this sharp short story and am now totally absorbed in this fantastic series he wrote. so if i have to cope with the terror that is a friday night in, at least tonight i’ve got good company.
(but saying that, i’ll be jumping off the plane hell bent for my east london night out come sunday)